Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Should I or should I not? / 6:29 AM
It is nice getting my thoughts or something else.
Spending my energy in another form.
It feels good to gym with Gabriel and gang.
Now that I gym so often with them, I just began to think of the past.
Of the what ifs.
What if I did not quit DB?
Would life be different?
Probably so.
I miss rowing to be honest.
I guess it is true that I have been feeling this for quite a while.
So the thing is should I join back?
I feel disappointed for not getting into the team.
Not getting the competition attire and paddle.
Wasted opportunities.
Maybe I should join back to take more of my time and energy?
I have no idea.
Somebody tell me what I should do.
Spending my energy in another form.
It feels good to gym with Gabriel and gang.
Now that I gym so often with them, I just began to think of the past.
Of the what ifs.
What if I did not quit DB?
Would life be different?
Probably so.
I miss rowing to be honest.
I guess it is true that I have been feeling this for quite a while.
So the thing is should I join back?
I feel disappointed for not getting into the team.
Not getting the competition attire and paddle.
Wasted opportunities.
Maybe I should join back to take more of my time and energy?
I have no idea.
Somebody tell me what I should do.
We know life is hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been
found out. Well, nobody ever said life would be a bed of roses did they? So what amazes me? What do I really like? There are so many that can be listed down. Go figure. So what have you? Again to find this answer
you need to enter into your own world of reality and reflect upon it. Jus do not be afraid of what stares back at you. :O
Isn't it amazing - amzing how people change; the way they are, they things they like, the way of things. Like how I used to hate rain and just
felt that it was a complete waste of time. I've acquired to like it more ever since. You can say that rain gives me the sense of peace and tranquility. I guess people do change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective. I guess it is
all in the mind and all part of growing up. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is doing much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old suicidal
thoughts, which were pretty daunting to be honest. Maybe we all need to see things in another light, another perspective and another new way in order to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. 